I searched and searched for that stroller all over the place since it's not available in Canada and as of tomorrow, I will have sold it with having only gotten to use it once, maybe twice... It's just too big for us now... Marrah walks a lot of the time and we won't need a big double for walks next summer... so I'm downsizing to a newer fancier single stroller with the option for a double which I love... I just hope and pray I get to use it this time...
I wonder if I'll cry tomorrow after they go... I just hope I can hold out long enough for them to get out the door so the ladies don't look at me like I'm crazy... I really don't want to explain why I never got to use the stroller (I posted it was because of "unforeseen circumstances" on Kijiji) and why I'm selling the swing when I'm quite obviously expecting another... I'll figure something out if I need to but hopefully they won't ask.
I miss you little one... it seems like it should be getting easier with time but it's not... this whole month of working up to your birthday is just so hard... it was sooo never supposed to be this way... I was supposed to be happy that you were getting bigger and we didn't need this stuff anymore... but nope, no such luck. I love you, Kaelen... Kisses and hugz sent to heaven for you baby...
Love,
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I'm new to your blog. Please allow me to suggest - - urge - - you to find a marriage counselor. You need to have someone on your side, especially after arguments, someone who will listen without making you feel self-conscious or uncomfortable, someone who can help you with new perspectives. Ideally, this person would also be someone who will listen when you talk about Kaelen, too. I had a counselor for awhile, and I can't tell you what a relief it was to be freed of the burdens I carried. You deserve to feel better and hopeful and at peace. In the meantime, you are in my prayers.
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