If ever there is a tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember.
You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think;
but the most important thing is, even if we're apart,
I will always be with you.
~ Winnie the Pooh

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Reborn Dolls

I found out about reborn dolls a few weeks ago and have been obsessed with them ever since. I've totally been contemplating having one made of Kaelen. To me, it seems kinda weird and wonderful all at the same time. I'm trying to wrap my head around not feeling like a total weirdo for wanting to do it. It's not like the doll would ever "become" my baby. I guess I just would like some visual 3D holdable remembrance of him rather than all the pictures I have that just don't do him justice. There will just never be enough pictures of him for my liking.

His big sister Marrah has thousands upon thousands of pictures of her in her 3 years she's been here with me (that's what she gets for having a photographer for a Mommy) and even though I have a fair bit of him because my friend came and did a session with him, there's just not enough. I still kick myself for not taking my camera with me to the hospital - I should've taken my own pictures of him and I regret it now.

So, I e-mailed a lady that makes reborn dolls (http://babiesbycarol.webs.com/) in Calgary (about 3-4 hours away from me) and we will see what she responds. I told her it was a reborn doll of my stillborn son that I wanted and that if she wasn't comfortable with it, to just let me know. I may be weird but hey, whatever... I'll get over feeling weird about it eventually... it's not like anyone other than you guys, my husband and my daughter will ever know about my Kaelen doll.

Night night little man... sending you tons of sweet sweet dreams up in heaven and lots of love. Hugs and kisses!

Love,

2 comments:

Liz said...

i made one myself of Aquila, and it was very theraputic. i think , when i am not pregnant that i would like to make them for other baby loss mamas. there are perfect to just hold- they feel very similar to a baby that has passed. i would totally offer to make one for you,, but i am afraid it would take me too long- and then i would feel guilty! Aquilas took me months to start it. once i started it only took about two weeks though..

The Blue Sparrow said...

I dont think that's weird at all! In fact I would love to see your Kaelen doll if she decides to do it, because then I might do one myself! (((HUGS)))