I always knew you would be born on Remembrance Day... from the minute I knew I was pregnant with you, I knew, you'd be my Remembrance Day baby... just like your big sister is my Thanksgiving Day baby... I just never realized that it would a be a time to mourn you as well as all the lives lost in all the wars since time began. You were and still are my little warrior... the little one that just kept on fighting until it was too much and too hard to continue to hold on...
You made it so far baby... almost right to the day we met you... even though you were having trouble you kept trying to hold on and Mommy loves you for giving her all the time with you that she had... it will never be long enough, never ever but I will cherish all the time that we did have forever. Those 9 months were so wonderful, even though Mommy was sore and grumpy... no matter how much I complained I loved you so much and I know you know that...
My whole world revolved around taking care of you inside of me for those 9 months and I hope I can be a good home for a little brother or sister for you when they come and that they will be a fighter just like you and come out screaming just like you should have. I know you will be watching over them while Mommy carries them inside her tummy and that you'll be their best friend while they wait to meet us, singing them songs just like your big sister and I did for you, telling them all about their wonderful new family waiting for them. When I see the twinkle in their little eyes, I'll know they remember you, their big brother in heaven and can feel you taking care of them and watching over them from above.
Baby boy, see my little candle shining for you... sending all my love up to you in one little flame... You will always be my little baby and you will always be inside of me, holding me, cuddling with me, just like you would if you were here on Earth. It's not what I wanted but I'll be happy with what I have and cherish feeling you around me and inside of my heart. I will never forget how beautiful and perfect you were and how you felt inside of me growing and kicking.
I love you baby boy... so much that it hurts... tomorrow is a new day... lonelier without you but I will keep going because I know it is what you'd want even though some days it takes everything I've got to keep moving... Feel my love, Marrah's love and Daddy's love surrounding you in heaven and know that you are always in our hearts.
Happy 6 month birthday baby boy... I'm sure Granny and Grandma and Grandpa are bouncing you on their knees and cuddling you just like I would. I love you.
Love,
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((((hugs)))) I am so sorry.
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