Unmarvelous Monday...

I was going to post a Marvelous Monday post... and try to get out of the doldrums I've been in... but then, my friend Rhonda went into labour this morning with her beautiful little 19 week old twin girls and they went to heaven this morning... I was so hoping that she didn't have to join our babyloss mama world... I knew she was in a precarious position with her pregnancy but I so didn't want her here... on this sad side of the world...

I don't want anyone to have to go through the pain I've been through... I don't want anyone to feel what I've felt... I'll never again be able to not worry endlessly for my friends when they are pregnant... I'll never again be able to relax when I'm pregnant either. It just sucks... so yes, Marvelous Monday is out the window this week... maybe next week will be better... Please send Rhonda, Rob and Maya and their twin babies, Zoe Marie and Anna Eileen lots of prayers and thoughts... I'm sure they will need it during the next few weeks and months...

Dear baby boy... please take good care of Anna and Zoe up there in heaven with you... please help them to send lots of love to their Mommy and Daddy and big sister, Maya so they don't feel so alone and lost without their babies to hold. We all miss you, little ones... and one day we'll see you again... I love you, baby boy... sending all my love and hugs to you on angel's wings.