Another baby lost...

Okay this last week just sucked... Another friend of mine lost her little boy. He was full term and I don't have all the details but they lost their little man and I feel so bad. No matter how jealous I've been of all my friends having babies, I never ever ever wanted one of them to join me in this crappy journey. We weren't close friends so I'm trying to give her some space while still being there for her and I soooo don't know how to do that. I just hope and pray that they can make it through this and I can be there for her. Please pray for my friends, Cara and Devin, their little girl, Delia and their little man up in heaven.

She has a little girl almost the same age as my daughter and at least I know how much that helps even if it hurts... having that little one to hold onto in your grief does help. I don't think I could have gotten through it without my Marrah... She always comes up and asks "What's wrong?" when I'm crying and is willing to give me a hug and a snuggle. She has been talking about Kaelen a lot lately... how he's "with God" in heaven... she even said he was going to jump out of a tree and surprise us... oh how I wish he would... I've even seen her start to say that he's in my tummy... but then she realizes that he isn't anymore and stops... It just sucks that the only way she'll know her baby brother is through pictures and what we tell her...

Kaelen, please take care of Cara's little one... he's new in heaven and needs your help to get used to his new home... I love you baby boy... Someday we'll see each other again. Lots of kisses and hugz are on their way.

Love,