Snuggling a baby...

I went over to my best friend's house yesterday for a play/baking date. Marrah had a blast playing with her little friends Sydney and Jacob and I got to snuggle little Ethan. Ethan is almost 8 months old... he's so cute and loves to be held and so I took one of my woven wraps that I bought to snuggle Kaelen in over and we had a good snuggle. It felt so good to have a baby in my wrap... even if it wasn't my little man, it felt nice to have him snuggled in there so cozy. It hurt to think it was supposed to be my little Kaelen in there while we baked and talked but at least Ethan was there to fill a little of my pain and warm my heart. He even had a little nap on me while he was wrapped and that was such a nice gift he gave, that he was happy and comfy enough with me to have a sleep.

I still wish I could snuggle Kaelen and it's sad that it's going to be his little sisters or brothers (and his big sister sometimes) that get the snuggles in those wraps instead of him but at least I can hope he knows how much his mommy wanted to snuggle with him everyday and how he'll be snuggled up inside my heart forever.

I love you Kaelen and miss you every moment of every day and so does your sister and your Daddy. Watch over us sweet angel and wait for us. Love, Mommy.